I'm creating a blog. I don't really know why, and I don't know if I'll ever feel like sharing it, but I want to anyway. My history with keeping up with diaries and journals is pretty awful--maybe a blog will have better success. I'm in front of my laptop virtually all the time anyway, so I've got that going for me. Which is nice.
I'm actually hoping that starting this will kick-start the process of productive thought and figuring things out for me. "Things" being my passions, basically. Now I'm a little over halfway finished with law school, but feel less confident in where I'm heading than before I began.
Second semester of second year is well underway and I find myself tumbling at an uncomfortably increasing speed down the "don't worry, you've made it through the tough part, it's all downhill from here " hill. Despite reassurances that the worst of law school is over (which I am completley certain is true--I don't even mind law school anymore. Secretly, I enjoy it this year. Either that or I have a new perspective on what is enjoyable after last year. You know--Everything's relative, perception is everything, There's nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so...) I'm worried. Worried maybe because I know there's very little I could do to mess this up so completely that I won't get my degree? Don't get me wrong, I want it. I've worked for it. I'm really really happy I decided to do it and happy I chose the school I did. I needed the challenge. Best of all are the people--I've met some truly amazing people who I hope I'll be lucky enough to keep around for years to come. I've learned quite a lot about myself, and I've never once felt stagnant or at a loss for things to do. I guess I'm worried because I don't know what's next. What exactly have I been working for? What's at the end of this hill I'm tumbling down toward graduation? I hope it's not a snake. Or a bear. Or a dead whale shark that the aquarium didn't know what to do with. Bleh!
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